Something I'd like to say
please watch the video in the above link for context.
I know theres a lot of hype about the aformentioned fights on the American Idol show…I’m not a pop show person, but theres something in the clip that spoke to me.
they disected the girl who auditioned. I’m sick of the genre-ism in our music culture…are you country? are you 90’s r&b throwback? are you soul?
I had crazy flashbacks of people dissecting me and what I’m trying to be, how people don’t “understand” it or certain people would say that I am not “relatable” as an artist.
there is hardly any free form in popular music, if any.
this bullshit makes me self-conscious about the music I put out, because I’m not trying to be genre specific in a genre-centric culture.
I dont know who I am, that should be fine, but people like everyone in this video besides Nicki (who surprizingly I support 150%) will reject me because I’m not a solid enough color.
I put too much expectation on myself, even though I’m new to all this.
while I was watching this clip I could hardly breathe.
Its the same thing we all wish, to be understood and accepted, not dissected and judged and morphed into something a little more digestible.
I wish to spread an appreciation for what the world sees as grey areas.
I hope people don’t judge me the way they tried to compartmentalize that poor contestant, then SHAME Nicki for standing up for being unique.
then again, I guess I am gonna try to not care who judges. It would ruin the purpose if I did.
for the record, I didn’t edit before I posted this thought barf, so obvious apology for typos/lack of coherency.